Words are weighty
They lay heavy upon our hearts whenence utterances of lofty verses spit forth from our mouths
Rarely, if ever, do we dwell upon their placement of the hearts to which they are spoken too
And to quickly are they followed by actions which contridict the very sayings of which were put forth
How then do we so quickly cling to the words of such whimsicle speech?

Yet on the other hand, there is amoung us Words which will never be lofty ideals
Words which were thought out beyond our understanding
Words which actions always, without a doubt, line up even beyond what is said
Words which are true in every form it holds.
Though we find ourselves constantly wrestling to understand these Words...
They contain the meaning of life, and all we ever truly need to know.
What are these words which drip of sweet honey, that seem to always cause a stir?

Oh, I'm glad you asked. These Words which will not fail to act, these Words that will not be flippant, these Words will be not be unrealistic, these Words which hold the breathe of the newness of life are the Words of God Himself...yes God, Creator of the Universe and everything visible and invisible to us. His Words, we have, easily accessed yet too easily taken for granted...Let us not forget what we have been given and cling to it engraving it upon our hearts.

":The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they ^(K)may have life, and have it abundantly. " john 10:10

he's come and stolen, stolen happiness, and stolen what is meant to be enjoyed. flee far from us oh wretched of all for we walk with Christ who overcame you, thus with this shield of faith your arrows will not touch us, yes we feel your heat, but never your pierce.

My heart chooses to rejoice, for He has given me joy. My circumstances may not be as i wish, nor the state of my being in its peace with no troubles, but He has filled me up and I am overflowing. I cannot swim in this sea of dread, because He has given me life! And I will drink it up and taste and see He is GOOD! I will declare His name upon mountain tops. I will praise Him morning, day and eve, for He is my salvation, my joy, my hope, my peace, my every need, my ALL. He has never allowed my foot to be caught, but rather carried me in His arms back to His flock when i've  strayed away. He will allow me to be tested and tried but only to refine me as gold so I am fit for Himself. He is molding me, and chipping away all that is unclean so I may stand before Him one day holy. Though I cry out in agonizing tears through this shaping, I trust He is my sovereign God, who has promised this is all for His and my good...Though these flaming arrows fly in all direction, I will hope with faith in Him who has promised to extinguish all the flaming arrows of the enemy.

Amazing things

I’ll make you mine if you would have me.
With a silver ring that will hug you tight,
Our life begins.
Our life begins with this.

I’ll prove my love if you would let me.
Over and over and over again.

We’ll bring a child into this world
And we’ll say the one thing
Everyone should hear:

You were meant for amazing things.

Give me your hand, it’s time.
It’s time to show new eyes their home.
When fences divide our land,
I would catch bullets with my bare hands.

'Cause you were meant for amazing things

a song by Sleeping at Last called Umbrellas

I find it so beautiful because place God as the one calling you....

this song, and God telling me this...just this past week...God! I cannot wait to see what amazing things you have planned for me!

Stale before my Creator, I sit crackled and broken by my own doing. This wall barely stands and with every wind it seems to shake a little more than it did once before. Once this bridge stood solid and firm with a foundation built in Christ, but it seems these high wires are getting a bit weaker as more weight is added to the daily traffic. Though I'm learning that too often the door hinges have been held together by my bear teeth, grinding  for tiresome labor in which I am called to let go and let my Maker take a hold of. For He will be the one to hold this door shut tightly and the one to break it open with the breaking of His beautiful days--Maker crack my teeth so they will no longer clinch to this grip I've take on what You've so graciously given me!

Everything comes very clear it seems when looking back. Over the past months I've noticed something amazing God has done in my life.

Around Novemberish, last year I went through a period where I felt very depressed and that all the things I once had a passion for seemed to be undesirable and nothing I really cared about. Such things as, ballet, climbing, snowboarding, photography, even food, spending time with friends and family, being creative and crafty, and making any effort with school. I noticed that though one thing remained, God and my desire to follow after Him. It was in this time of complete depression and having to complete rely on God each day to get up and have motivation to go on that He taught me an amazing lesson through a period of time. Around Jan of this year He taught me  that I need only Seek HIM First, and nothing else. In seeking Him first and pursuing the only true love in my life, all things seemed to fall back in to place. God gave me suffiency and a complete love for Him and then slowly added back my appetite, desire to spend time with people, ballet, climbing, snowboarding, being creative, photography and school. Though in giving me back my desire for those things, He helped me see that in all things He gives me, my purpose in them is to use them to Glorify Him and nothing else. That He has blessed me with a family to love them and witness to them the love of God, that He has given me friends to love and encourage, rebuke and exhort, that He has given me ballet to be a form of worship like singing is to Him, that He has given me climbing to exercise yet have a place where non-believers gather and a source to spread His name, that he has given me this eye for photography and desires that I use it to draw people to Him through drawin them to His wonder and creation, that He has given me a motivation for school to be faithful to Him in small things now, to stay motivated and focused when i really just want to give up, to help me not see the effects or reaps yet but continue in trust with Him.

I cannot thank God enough for doin the work He is doing and has done in my life, just with this trial and just completely re-transforming my life and purifying me of all my idols and returning them where they should be, to praise Him, and glorify Him with everything He has given me in my life. I cannot praise Him enough for not giving me over to my idols to become like them, but rather He swept me off my feet rescued me from myself and replaced the me with Him...Praise His Name!

Though I know I will fail, and continue to each day in truly giving Him the glory He is due in my life and all that He has given me, I see that His grace covers me, and that sin will not stop me from seeking Him first, and I praise Him for His son, for that being possible.

God is good. I'm thankful He is changing my life, one day at a time.